Funny how a planned, forever happy life it is just not enough for me. Maybe Nothing is enough but what can I say?
Love is found in unexpected places, love is lost is the most random ones.
When I began my journey I had two goals and two goals only. Marry you and be a great physician here. (not quite sure if it is the right order)
Funny, oh my God ...sigh needed. Of course I love your soul, I love our friendship the things we have being through.. I love me a lil more when I am with you...But I am not exactly in love anymore. Perhaps denial has been our friend for quite some time now.
It's scary how my feelings can change, more variable even than in idiotype in the middle of the jungle...Not as quite specific though.
Everything that I've learned until now, did not prepare me for what I am feeling right now.
To tell you the truth, I fought this feelings for a long time, in order to make you happy... One specific elicit a cascade inside of me...Complement like...in made a whole in me like a MAC ...and leave like this... Kinda death outside.. but more activated than ever.
They say depressive people don't like to be happy, they like dram and suffering. Perhaps it is right.
Perhaps is my time to suffer for a while, perhaps is your time to be free and happy... while I ... I just AM... ME for the first time in a long long time.http://youtu.be/0put0_a--Ng