domingo, 19 de junio de 2011

Another version of me is taking over my life, and I am not quite sure I dislike it.

It's like looking in a mirror and watching a person right behind you smile and saying it's OK, just rock the place out!

Even though things look peaceful, in my unstable and stupid bone marrow there is a freakin World War three. And I am had IT.

This stupid, melancholic, day dreaming shit cannot get over me!.. I will have fun INDEED. Not much .. not too lil.. just ENOUGH...

For sure... I am not givin my heart away AGAIN. It hurts too much, hurting somebody because you are unable to love.

I am lacking of a gene.. I am positive, or an enzyme that can degrade love and assimilate it.

I am lacking of something... for God sake!... or perhaps I never had it at the beginnign..


I was lacking tach!

Funny how a planned, forever happy life it is just not enough for me. Maybe Nothing is enough but what can I say?

Love is found in unexpected places, love is lost is the most random ones.

When I began my journey I had two goals and two goals only. Marry you and be a great physician here. (not quite sure if it is the right order)

Funny, oh my God ...sigh needed. Of course I love your soul, I love our friendship the things we have being through.. I love me a lil more when I am with you...But I am not exactly in love anymore. Perhaps denial has been our friend for quite some time now.

It's scary how my feelings can change, more variable even than in idiotype in the middle of the jungle...Not as quite specific though.

Everything that I've learned until now, did not prepare me for what I am feeling right now.

To tell you the truth, I fought this feelings for a long time, in order to make you happy... One specific elicit a cascade inside of me...Complement made a whole in me like a MAC ...and leave like this... Kinda death outside.. but more activated than ever.

They say depressive people don't like to be happy, they like dram and suffering. Perhaps it is right.

Perhaps is my time to suffer for a while, perhaps is your time to be free and happy... while I ... I just AM... ME for the first time in a long long time.

martes, 7 de junio de 2011


The just suck!